Friday, March 7, 2008

good and bad

So things had been somewhat ho-hum lately which is neither good nor bad; i'll take it. Last night working Toga party at the bar was some bittersweet fun. I got to dance a bit and F (who's got more moves than Kobe in crunch time) was burning it down. It was fun and now i've got a new move to learn (which F called crazy-sexual. . . it was funny how he said it). I also got to socialize with a few ladies and dodge and dismiss drunk chicks that weren't good-natured. My bartender girl was a little down on herself but i tried to console a bit; she felt physically inadequate (she isn't) and sick but i'm sure she'll get over it (baby i got yo money- $3.75).
Overall it was good except it ended about as poorly as it could have. This one girl L has hit on me for about 1.5 years and I haven't done anything with that because she's in and out of relationships and has a less than sparkling rep. None of that bothers me but i just don't think i'll get what i'm looking for from her (ie. not a tryst) so i've generally been dismissive. The problem: she's cute and funny and irreverent and fucking quirky. If it wasn't so physical with her on her part then I'd consider it since the innuendo and coyness are fantastic.
Anyhow, it got to closing time and a girl i hadn't seen in a while (january) was there and for whatever reason I just think she's fantastic. She strikes me as having self-respect (which she does. . . and that's a bit unfortunate considering how the night closed), being smart, cool, relaxed and down to earth: a good match (and she always has nice heels on). Anyhow, I caught her midevening and told her to make sure to say goodbye to me. Really, I'd like to meet her for some conversation and a little 'get to know you better' stuff. On her way out, however, she was leaving just as L was trying to kiss me. Boo. I of course caught her leaving and got over there to say goodbye. I asked her why she didn't come say goodbye.
Her line: "you were busy."
NO! I tried to play it off and she was mildly accepting but it seemed obvious that that although she agreed that "that girl" was crazy and to forget about it that she was just being polite and that my small chance had been blown. I'll keep my fingers crossed that i get to see her again and maybe be straight-up with her but i think the jam's done.
Sorry Barbara, misunderstanding's a mutha.

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